Did you ever have an idea that just wouldn’t leave your awareness?No matter how you push it away it returns with more strength than in those short periods of time when the idea seemed to have finally gone for good!
Well; since I was a child the idea of little verses big has been with me, and no matter what I do, it still returns.
The examples I use are palpating with my skating blades, palpating perception of life, as well as how I feel and experience things in gentle ways.
I tried to push these little verses big away in all aspects of my life.Guess what happened?The little just doesn’t want to go away.So; rather than fight, I will switch.Resisting this idea seems worse and really makes me tired.
So; why did I try and push away something that feels good?
I’m getting a sense that feeling comes first, and the figuring out happens after I feel something.
Maybe this is the key.Even when doubts come, and doubts will come because to me; that is part of the way we look at things in perception terms.We try, we test, we sort, we sift, and sooner or later if we keep at it enough some incredible experiences happen.I am sensing I sometimes give up way too early before my revelation or inner breakthrough, or inner shift happens.
Staying in the little and feeling comfort as well as comfortable as the little turns into bigger is a kind of patience, and maybe a bit of perseverance as well.
I start with an idea that feels like a small dot, and as my attention and intention around the little dot will grow as my intention and attention focus on the dot which represents an idea ready to start growing.
For me; it is all about not pushing, and merely allowing the feel of my idea to shape, mold, and grow in energy terms of actually feeling myself through rather than trying to figure my way through the maze of possibilities life has to offer.
The dots help me focus in terms of possibility, and allow me to use the small dots to keep me centered on a point of thought or feeling.
This for me takes the sense of being overwhelmed with all the possibilities we have and without a lot of effort from my physical self, the ideas turn into actual physical experiences.